Is missing him a sign that I’ve not let it go? I guess not. I really miss him loads. I specially came online today, like now. Cos the other week, I was talking to him online too. Sigh. Is it true that we’ve got to use the same amount of time we use to love the person to forget them? If that is the case, I need 2 yrs - the no. of yrs we got tog.

I’ve this silly thought that perhaps when I see him online again, I might give him my new number since I feel I can move on n not be affected by him. but I dropped the idea. I was so silly. He didn’t even make much effort in getting my number y shld I even initiate to give him. jokes! All I know is, he tried asking ling but she refused. Ling didn’t speak to me about it. But well, I know she wan me good.

Ya all along I have been praying to god when we r tog that we will be this n that.. but perhaps god deem that we’re not suitable for one another yet.so separation was good for now. I cant deny that I still love him. I cant deny that I still want to be with him again. But I know, whatever the outcome is,god wants the best for me. He put me thru these tests to make me a stronger person. All I need to do is to pray for strength to pull thru this tough times…


the hatred,the anger,the denials has subside..i feel that i can once again pray for him..though he has done me wrong, i still want the best for him.i will continue to keep u in my prayers, kwang...i hope god will guide u and bring the best out of you.