Bi, you know i'm feeling really moody over us..i'm still sad over the incident on sat when i've been waiting for u for 1 hr and 30 mins while u're playing MJ. no matter how dwn i am and i know u're arent feeling gd, i will put dwn the mask of being moody and haf to cheer u up..i felt tt i've treated u better than myself. i dunno if u does feel how nice am i to you. but i'm very sad tt u did not even care about y i'm moody and how are u gg to make me feel better.you did nothing at all. i wanted to send this email to u.but in the end i changed my mind as i'm afraid it will make you worst. am i being silly or wat? u noe love is unconditional but, i if dun get wat i deserve then wat's the point? sigh.

heartache

sigh..my heart is bleeding profusely .how can someone whom I thought to loved and treasured me so much let me leave just like that? Went to Apel’s hse(bi’s fren) hse today. He was there playing MJ. My flu was not gone yet and I’m feeling so sleepy and bored sitting there watchin a stupid show. I tired to signal him tt I’m nt feeling gd, I’m feeling tired. But he did NOTHING! Nothing at all to make me better. Not even a word of concern. Do I deserve this kind of men? Sometimes I asked why must I be treated with so much shit when I treasure him hell lots?!

I went out of the hse to make a 15mins call he din even care.only when I’m back then said where have I been. I told him I’m gg to jas’s hse so after a few mins I took my bag and told apel n etc I’m leaving..sadly, he din stop his game…he just y aint I’m gg his aunt place n all..then I left.

I texted him and demand him to come dwn by 5 mins time…but in the end he told me he has 1 more round to go and is around 20 mins…oki I wait..i waited like a fool…in the end I waited him for 1 hr 30 mins! How silly eh.. I was too angry to not wait for him. I wanted to mit him and gave him a hard scolding.but at times I really wanted to just go over jas’s hse…

Each time I msg him and asked hw long more then he said like got 3 more rds etc etc…I told him I was not feeling very gd…very xin ku..but he sae he cant leave just like tt w/o completing the game…and even want me to be understanding! I guess even if I die he wun stop playing mj till it totally ends. I noe nuts above MJ cos he din even make an attempt to teach me..many a times I’ve asked him to but he said is diff to teach..WTF…so I told him I cant be understanding when I noe nothing about MJ…

Wat a freaking day for me…. My heart is still bleeding..God do I really deserve this men?