omg! i'm so happy for debby (jack's sister)!! I happened to read his blog and got the news that she went to ROM .Wanted to sms to send her my wishes but i guess it will be kinda obvious that i read his blog eh.oh well..nvm..haiz..


it's so great to have found the rite one. it's like finding a needle in the sea.lol.Direct translation from chinese.when will i find mine??


Gt some conflict with Irene again.She's sickening and freaking stuborn!! i cant stand her. Sometimes the more she resist, the more i will make things difficult for her.lol.But of cos in a reasonable way la.Always ask me for advice then after given her my suggestion she still do it her own way. then why the hell you bother to ask me! arent you wasting my time! ASS...argh...

After sending the email to cyndi, things got a lot better than I expect. I hope it remains. The stress from both work n studies is terrible. I hope everything remain and get better after the new accountant come on the 1st oct.

Met emma on wed. Treat her to this pasta café at takashimaya basement, ordered Cesar Salad, pasta, linguine and a brownie for dessert. The brownie wasn’t up to the standard, the salad was alrite and the food there wasn’t tt bad though. I ate so much so that I felt my stomach is bursting- to be exact it shld be the dress that I’m wearing that seems to be explode anytime.

Oh ya, before that I saw guang, he by-pass me, walking in opposite direction. I think he did see me but he was just pretending not to. He was with a gal and appeared to be very shabby. Didn’t went up to talk to him. Soon after, I saw ric. haha.tt was so coincident. He was with his gf. I said hi to him twice cos I didn’t know what to say basically its bcos his gf was there. Knowing that she was a petty person, I dare not say too much to prevent any bicker arise.

Btw, I have gotten my name card. I’m so happy! Though I’m not earning as much as my designation should, I’m happy that I’m getting the experience and benefits I acquire from it. I guess it need time to get the require experience so as to attain a higher and better pay. So glad that being at the age of 20, I’m promoted to a supervisor and given a name card. Lalalaa..i know I’m mad.haha. tt’s bcos my company is so stingy and yet they are willing to do one for me despite the presence of accountant. Bcos to me I feel that I don’t really have to deal with any other customers. Anyway I’m so happy la..haha..so far, I have given my family, sean, emma.. still have to gif it to jas n shi..

Coming to think of it, It’s really sad that we aren’t tt close anymore. Hope jas wun change. At least she does make the effort to contact me. I’m really glad that she does. We’re all busy with our own stuff. I really cherish them. But I just feel that shi is very much away from me. Sigh. Even if I were to cal her she will be very lazy tt sort.And even lazy to go out. Oh well, I’ve gt nthing to sae….

That's wat i wrote to my manager..She's a nice person to confine things in..


Hi Cyndi,

I’ve actually wanted to talk to you in person. But nevertheless, I felt that writing them in words will be a better way of expressing my feelings. To be frank, I haven’t been feeling happy this few weeks.

I haven’t been sleeping well for the pass few days as I am stressed up by both my studies and the workload in the office as well as how to maintain the good rapport with my team members while getting them to cooperate and get things done. I have been dreaming about work-related stuff for several nights.

For instance, the closing of monthly accounts and the things to follow-up on the departure of our directors. The August account was only 15% done?! I’m suppose to start doing it last Monday but was being instruct by Harlin to do up the accounts for Surabaya as he need it on Wednesday. As all the information keyed into the system was being lumped together, I have to dig out all the payment and break them out into the respective account code. On Thursday, some of the time was spent with our accountant but I did manage to do some of the preparation. Friday, I have spent half of the day on the things to do on the departure of our directors.

I’m afraid that I will not be able to complete the monthly financial report for Kenneth’s perusal in time. As I am taking a part time course, I do not have much time to stay over after work to complete the work. I will be thinking of my work even when I’m having lesson. Both of the task mentions are equally important, but how am I suppose juggle them? Am I being overly paranoid and exert too much unnecessary stress?

I’m grateful that the company has given me the chance to take up this role and would like to excel in it. However, I’m afraid that I am not doing a good job. Seriously, I really admire and respect you for having done such a good job in juggling work, family as well as your studies. I really have to learn them from you.

Apart from that, sometimes I have no idea if the work that was assigned can be done together with my team members ie. to acquire help from them to get it done. I personally feel that it is reasonable. But apparently, member from the team gave me the impression that, this is my job and I ought to do it by my own. Getting along & working well with co-worker is a difficult and challenging aspect.

I do love the company and the people in it and would definitely want to continue working and have advancement; however, recently I found that I have been dragging myself to work which I believe is an unhealthy indication. The reason for me writing this mail to you is to hope that you can help me to ‘resolve’, if possible, as I do not wish to have this kind of feeling.



Thanks & Best Regards
Josephine

Sigh.Haven't been feeling gd for the past few days. The departure of the 2 directors make my work pile up. I've to settle so many stuff with regards to their personal gurantor thingy. SUCKS! Then i stil got to inform the supplier and customers etc that they have left us. WTF man.! Is this accounts or HR job actually? It's already the 15th i ought to be preparing and key some data to close my monthly account but i have yet to do 20% of it. WTF!! Freaking pissed off. ARGH!! SOMEONE HELP ME PLS !!

I start to hate my stressful job. I hope this feeling won't last.I think it's due to this settlement of director's departure that makes me feel so busy. I'm afraid that i won't be able to close my account on time. Sigh. Anyway new accountant will be here on the 1st Oct'06. Hope things wil get better. **pray hard**

I'm so afriad that i will go into depression again.It's Sept, i actually planned to start revising in sept but i have yet to do so. i've gt no mood at all. Am beginning to slack.?!!? Sigh. Tml is sat again and i have no idea wat to do.Friends do ask me out but i told them i have something on which i actually don't. I'm mad la.

Went to Mr chin's hse at Bukit Gombak-Gui Ling Condo. It's a nice condo.! Nice scenery where the sua gu me can get to see xiao gui ling. Cos i have nv seen it b4. Then went to KTV at his hse. Actually i dun feel like going but i have promised him. haiz. i'm always doing things that's isn't my will. miserable eh. Haven't been really happy for quiet some time?! After KTV, low drove me back. Feeling very low.Wanted to cry. i'm sad. msged cake and ask if he wanna mit. But he was with QL so i din wana join them also la. went back home n use pc.Write dwn the feelings i have here.

Out of 'Curiosity' i went to read their blog again.I envy him n his gf. Sentosa, tanning and all..haiz.

HooHoo..I've set up a new blog again! Haven’t been blogging for quite sometime. Deleted the previous blog bcos of jack.Didn’t want to have memories left to reminisce. So I guess it’s best to delete them all from my memory. But that doesn’t help much. I still think of him after so long. Sigh, he’s attached now. How I wish, sometimes, that we’re still together. I know it’s impossible and impractical. That’s just an “anticipation” I wish to have in the past. Now? I duno. Even if I do, does it matter?

Sigh. I’ve no mood to study lately. By right, I shld be revising my work .but I’m right here slacking ard. I’ve gt to pull my socks up eh.

Oh ya I’ve just sign up a package for pedicure at Bugis. I’m broke. Spend quiet a bit in the first wk of the mth which I shldn’t be.Nxt wk still gotta go for facial and that’s another package to pay. Sigh can I have a rich bf to sponsor for all these stuff? Stupid cake kept calling me for KTV and movie[still to spend $$!!] Shall put all those ‘pay-by-my-own’ entertainment to pending mode first. Haha.

SHIT. I have been putting on a lot of weight lately. I look like a big fat pig. Help me!! I wanna slim down but I’m not doing anything to it. Kept telling myself to start tml or the next meal. Sigh. I’m a NOBODY-WANT , FAT and UGLY WOMEN.argh.

SIAN!!! Got to go to sch tml. Lately I get lethargic easily. I don’t know what’s with me.